Category: Forbidden Knowledge

I am almost done with the last school project I have to work on outside of school. Then I can look for a job for a while.

Meanwhile, I’ve been really stressed lately. Job hunting these days is demoralizing; being rejecting for a job online before a human even looks at my application. I don’t have much time left before I won’t get paid this summer, so money is on my mind a lot. I’m also quite lonely, as I do not want to seek romantic leads without having financial stability. And my studio has major chi blockage with all my storage boxes littering my kitchen. Dom isn’t in a good place yet.

Times like these are when I turn to spirituality and prayer. Really. The problem with that is that as I try to attune myself to higher states of being, I naturally find my more basic side seeks equal redress–I swing toward each extreme like a pendulum, with increasing momentum. Each act of [beauty/piety/nobility] is matched with so urge of consumption or depravity. Counterweights don’t bring harmony.

What I have done is establish a Purge Day–a pressure realease in my spiritual regimen. Today, I listened to none of my own music or my own thoughts (if you know what I’m like in the car, you know how intertwined the two are). I was stuck with inane chatter on the radio, but it wasn’t my internal dialogue of shoulds and fear and psychic static. I allowed myself to accept the happenings of the day without self-conciousness. I didn’t think much at all today, but I also let go of my spiritual disciplines for a bit. I feel there is a lesson here I can almost grasp, but we’ll digest it together as I explain thr foundations of my spiritual outlook (later~).

I also made an appointment to talk to an advisor at FIDM, a design school in San Diego and (mostly) in LA. I know that I can achieve great things if I can afford to go. I’m so financially dumb, it’s not funny. I want to go there so much, but there are big things in the works, besides financing. More on that later, too. I need to make some phone calls tomorrow.

See you soon, WordPress.


Dom likes food.  This is no secret.  But did you know:

  • Dom emotionally connects to people through food.
  • If you accept food offered from him, he feels you view him as safe and friendly.
  • If you ask him for food, he will readily give because you are reaching out to him, and he loves being needed.
  • If you offer him food, whether he accepts or not, you have made a friend.  He is extremely loyal to food buddies.
  • Dom would rather be treated to a meal than accept a gift.
  • Hates eating alone.
  • Hates eating in restaurants alone.  More often than not, he will not sit in a restaurant by himself, unless he doesn’t want to eat at home by himself.
  • Sometimes eats in his car outside of a restaurant if he feels awkward.
  • Dom thinks arriving a destination with a boba drink makes him cool.
  • He feels arriving late with a boba drink makes him appear more casual, even though he hates always being late.
  • He never stops for boba when he is late, even though being later with his casual boba drink is no different from being slightly late and frantic appearing.
  • Dom worries about getting fat.
  • He works out so he can eat more.
  • Dom always chews his food extremely well.
  • Dom hates eating all his food if he’s getting full, but hates wasting food more.  These two impulses are locked in constant battle if it is not practical to save food for later.
  • Dom prefers drinking his nutrients vice eating them.
  • He prefers real fruit smoothies to solid food.
  • Dom hates eating food when it is hot outside.
  • Dom is an unashamed omnivore.
  • Most of his teeth are pointy and sharp, naturally adapted to consume meat, but he believes in a well-balanced diet.
  • Dom prefers to eat meats with fruit.  Avocado and pineapple are particular favorites, but not in the same dish.
  • Dom dislikes chicken, but will eat it if no other meats, mushrooms or tofu are available.
  • Cooked mushrooms are an acceptable meat substitute, but raw mushrooms are not.
  • Dom’s preferences are:  Lamb > Fish > Beef > Cooked Mushrooms > Tofu > Seafood > Turkey > Bacon > Vegetarian > Other Pork > Chicken.  All menus are scanned for in this order, with variance based on previous meals and price.